In the morning the house cleared out. Parents picked up their kids and Jay cleared out with Tatia and Alex after the run. Dad left with Andy to take him home, then run a couple errands. Tavin stayed behind to breakdown the pack n play to take to his grandmom's. Julia broke it down and he held the bag while she slid it inside. They worked in silence. Julia felt awkward, but the butterflies buzzed in her belly.
"Julia, should I apologize?"
"No," She shrugged. She set the pack n' play down on her floor, holding it upright with her hands.
"I think it's clear that we have some kind of feelings."
"We only have been together for less than a day." Julia argued.
"But we chat everyday." He argued as well. He placed his hands on her shoulders, his touch jolting her like electricity. "Tell me you feel it too."
"I am shocked I feel anything at all." She muttered.
He took the pack n' play from her. "I can see why he loves you." He turned, leaving her room, walking the short hall to the living room. She followed him, letting him out the front door. He made it down the steps to the gate. "Hey, does that offer still stand? About me crashing here?"
"Would you like to crash here?"
He climbed the steps, leaving the pack n play by the gate.
"I would very much like to crash here, Red."
She pulled him back inside and their lips met. He kicked the door shut behind him, lifting Julia up and carrying her in the bed room. With that door firmly shut and locked behind them, clothes came off quickly. Tavin ravaged her body with bites and kisses, teeth pulling at her skin in little nips and scrapes. His hands held her strong as he made love to her. His abs were rock hard, muscles all taut and veins were engorged all over his chest and head. What surprised her was his length, his girth, filling her up and hitting her in places that she didn't know she had between her legs or inside her.
"I don't think I have ever come like that before." Julia announced out of breath and beads of sweat dripping off her brow. His torso was soaked with sweat. He wiped his body down with a bath towel, cleaning his dick before putting on his boxer briefs.
"You feel alive?"
"Hell, yeah. I do." She gasped, still catching her breath.
He leaned over her, giving her a kiss on her forehead. "You have a sweet pussy."
"You have an amazing dick."
Julia watched him get dressed, then curled up beneath her quilt before he opened the door.
"Tavin, this is just between us."
He nodded, "Does the offer still stand, Julia? To crash here?"
"Yes." She nodded. "I want you to crash here."
Making love with Tavin had her head in the clouds. She'd never felt like he made her feel. She knew she was getting close to him, chatting with him on Facebook, texting him in her spare time, the late night phone calls after Jay had left the house. Turns out Jay wasn't the only brother who had sleep issues. Life went on as normal that weekend, and they hung out as usual. When Jay fell asleep, the two went to her house and hit her bed again. Tavin placed her in positions she didn't know existed. Her orgasms were out of the world, his kisses like silk on her skin. His loving left her sweating and left her body shaking from pleasure. He brought out the noise in her. "You can do whatever you like, whatever you want. And if you want me to , then say it. Ok? Weird is good. Words are better. When I make love to you, talk it out. Say 'harder', say 'fuck me'. The more I want it , the hotter I feel, then vice versa." Tavin explained.
By the end of the weekend her body was sore from their work outs, her crotch was sore and swollen. She was in lust with another guy. All her thoughts were of Tavin and those thoughts consumed her. She walked around in a constant state of heightened sexuality.
"Julia, are you ok?" Jay asked, poking her shoulder. He sat on his bed with his Xbox controller in his hands. She was in her own world.
"Yeah, why?" She asked. "Just thinking is all."
Wondering how your brother is on that bus, wishing he was here. She thought.
"I didn't want him to leave."
"Neither did I." Julia sighed. "He's a cool guy. You two seem to be happy and all. I'm glad he came." Julia said, and came and came and came...she thought.
"He'll let us know when he's home."
"Yeah," Julia agreed, getting off his bed. She pulled the kitchen door shut firmly. "Jay turn off the game." she was still thinking of Tavin and needed to get it out of her system. She started taking off her clothes. She threw her sweater at him. "I said turn off the fucking game, Jay."
"Julia, ok. Ok."
She stood in front of him in her bra and panties. She pulled the pony tail holder from her head, letting her hair down. Unhooked her bra, letting it drop to the floor. She looked at the windows, covered in a couple blankets he'd put up, making sure there were no gaps. She dropped her hand in her underwear and started playing with herself. Tavin liked watching her do that. Jay watched her come, her body trembling by her own hand. He sat surprised, mouth open. She'd never done that before. She walked beside the bed, "Take them off." His hands reached up to her panty line. She smacked them away. "With your teeth." His eyes widened in surprise. "Then make me come. Use your mouth and your fingers."
Jay followed instructions, doing as he was told. When she wanted something done differently, she told him. She directed him into a loud, sweaty hour of fucking.
He pulled out of her. He stood next to the bed and took a drink from the water bottle.
"Come here." She smiled, rolling onto her side. She kissed the head of his dick, then licked little droplets of his cum off him.
He looked at her crotch. "I don't have to do that too, do I?"
"Only if you want to."
"What the hell got into you?" He asked. "Cause that was the best fucking sex we ever had."
"You." She grinned. "Can do whatever you like, whatever you want. And if you want me to , then say it. Ok?"
"Ok. So if I say, get on your knees, then you'll do it."
"Yep."
"And if I smack your ass."
"Ok."
"You don't like the way we usually do things?"
"I do, Jay. I love you and the way you do things. You're always so...gentle. Sweet."
"So you want me to be-"
"I don't know, Jay. I can't explain it." She shrugged.
"Have you been watching porn."
"Eww, no."
"Cause I watch porn, and there's some stuff we could maybe talk about."
"No talking, just doing. Surprise me." Julia got up and got dressed. "I'm going home, babe. Play on." She kissed him on his cheek. "School in the morning. Back to reality."
Life got back to normal. School was back in. Tavin was back in Pittsburgh. The decorations were taken down and the trees were thrown away. Jay went weekly to see his mother, started writing to her regularly and even had Alex write her. Julia's life returned to her familiar routine, so did Jay's. She tried like hell to put Tavin out of her mind. She fought off thoughts of him, remembering his touch and his kisses. The fact that she didn't have anyone to talk to about him didn't help. He was locked in her head like a private prisoner. Laying in bed late at night, talking to him on the phone, she missed him, wanted to go to him. But then there was Jay, stable, reliable, responsible, lovable Jay. Her rock, the guy she turned to when things got rough. His brother wouldn't replace him in her heart or in her life, but that one weekend-as guilty as she felt for it and as wrong as it was- had been liberating personally and sexually. She felt wanted for no reason at all, she felt dirty and slutty and so satisfied. Jay was clueless. He trusted her and his brother implicitly. Was he wrong for doing so? Wrong for not having any doubt in her or her brother?
The weekend arrived, Hayley was sleeping over. No boys, no intoxication. Just girlfriends hanging out. They hadn't done that in a long time. Her dad was home, not feeling well. He swore he had the flu, but he only had a cold.
"So I bet your boy misses you. What's he doing over there?"
"I think it's a combination of porn and Xbox." Julia answered. Hayley painted Julia's toenails, urging her to stay still.
"Who are you chatting with? I thought this was our weekend?"
"Jay's brother." She answered. "We chat on Facebook, Hay."
"Jay's cool with that?"
"I guess, he never said I couldn't."
Julia tucked the phone beneath her pillow, which Hayley thought was strange because it appeared as if she was trying to hide something. She put it out of her mind the first time, but when she did it more than once, Hayley made a mental note to check out the conversation. Julia had been acting strange lately. Different. She lacked focus the people in her life, even Jay noticed she'd been pulling away from everyone, but he said he'd asked her about it and she was just fine, distracted.
When Julia went to order pizza, get some drinks and check on her dad, Hayley seized the phone. Home screen pic, Tatia smiling. She checked the photos, swiping through them. Her eyes grew wide. She'd seen enough. Face book chat. Messages going back for weeks. Some just pure conversation and some messages with silly pics and emoticons. Till she saw the dick shot. 'Nice.' Hayley thought. Till she saw the red crotch shot and shook her head. When Julia entered her room, she looked like a kid caught with her hand in the cookie jar. Hayley turned her phone to her, the dick shot. She could feel the color drain from her, tears welling up in her eyes.
"You kept this from me." Hayley said. Julia stayed quiet. "Does Jay know?"
"No. No one does." She answered. "Till now."
"Delete this shit off your phone, tell him to do the same. Then delete him out of your life."
Hayley ordered.
"Hay, I'm falling for him."
"Are you out of your fucking mind?!" Hayley asked. "Julia, this is...this is wrong and so bad. If this information gets out, these pics...nice dick by the way. Very nice in fact. Does this run in the fam?"
"Jay's smaller." She answered. "Not tiny. I mean, I can get off on it. He's not as fat."
"Holy shit. Julia did you you slept with Tavin? When? New Year's? When I caught you two out back?"
"Yeah, that weekend. The whole weekend. Hayley, the whole weekend. Like for hours and hours."
"And Jay doesn't give you hours?"
"No, but that one has stamina. I mean it does not go down. He did things to my body and my pussy that I didn't know existed. What I thought was good, well ,is just ok. And I love Jay for a million reasons and he's so sweet and he's just perfect. But that guy, Tavin, rocks my world. He rocks my brain."
"He gets you off. You're on a dick high. That rush is normal when you get it and get it good, Babe." Hayley paused "Jay's not good? I can't believe that, Julia."
"He's wonderful and tender and sweet. And when he touches me I feel safe and loved in his arms."
"And with him you feel,"
"Dirty...in a good way. Turned on. Like, God, I never wanna stop."
"Who else have you hooked up with?"
"Nobody, Hayley."
"You need to end this. You know that. If you wanna have fun and date and go out with boys, then that's fine. I support you. I support whichever decision you make. But you can't play Jay like this either. You know that kid is into you. You know the trouble this will cause between brothers. I can't believe you of all people would do this."
"I know, Hayley. I am so guilty and ashamed of myself."
"We tell each other everything. Why didn't you tell me?"
"Because you'd tell me I am a slutty little whore and a horrible girlfriend and make me choose."
"So, basically what you already know." She paused. "You know what I think? I think you spend too much of your life being an adult. You spend too much time taking care of them. You spend so little time on yourself that when you wanna let loose, you go nuts and get yourself in situations like this." Hayley looked at the cell again. "You gonna delete this? Or shall I?" Hayley asked. "Cause you know what I'd give to have Jayson in my life? He's one of the good ones. He'd die for you right now if someone gave him the choice. You know what you need to do."
She spent the night getting it all out, venting every feeling and every fear. They got to know each other on a different level, one where they could trust each other with their skeletons in the closet. Her deepest feelings she reserved for Jay usually. She thought no one would ever understand her, but Hayley did. When you think you know someone, sometimes you realize you just scratch the surface. The more you pry, the more you find.
Julia called Tavin after Hayley left. "Hey, Red. How was your sleep over?"
"Hayley knows." Julia answered. "She went through my phone, Tavin."
"How much did she see, Red?"
"She knows everything, Tavin." Julia answered. "I can't do this anymore. I can't do this to Jay and..." She started crying.
"Julia, you know where I am and you know I'm always here, right? I'm a phone call away. When you're ready, call me."
"I thought you'd be mad at me."
"I know how things are. It was something that happened. Not wrong and not right, just a connection between two people that isn't gonna work right now." He said. "Get yourself together. Go see Jayson. Tell him you love him."
The phone clicked. Julia opened her Facebook messages, deleted her conversations, deleted her pictures from the phone. She left him as a friend, because that's what he was. Julia sat in her room on her floor crying.
She texted Hayley, "It's over."
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